I decided to clean my bedroom tonight.  This involved mostly hanging up the pile of clothes that collected on the quilt rack because they were rejected during my daily wardrobe selection process.  While I am happy that the bedroom is now clean, hanging out in my closet made me sad.  I have a ton of clothes in there I bought when I hit my lowest weight that don’t fit.  I want to be in my size 12 jeans again.  That is when I was my happiest and healthiest.  I pulled one of those size 12s out and I have it hanging on my bedroom door so it is the first thing I see when I get up in the morning.  I need to remind myself why I need to count my points.  I go overboard with my food when I don’t count my points.  Counting my points is what got me to my size 12s in the first place, they will get me there again and beyond.  Tomorrow is a new day.


Took another day off.  My ankle felt pretty good today and I didn’t want to push it.  I plan to run my 5 miles in the morning.  It is supposed to be 28 degrees with 5 mph winds.  My cold gear should do just fine.

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  1. » Blog Archive » Trying Not to Talk About It Says:

    […] So people are probalby wondering what happend with my “Sad” post from a couple weeks ago.  Well I have cleaned up my eating, but I have been choosing not to talk about it.  Rather than obsess over it I just want to do it.  I think the past I have become so wrapped around my diet that I created too much pressure on myself and eventually I cracked.  This technique is working great for me so far.  I am down 7 lbs from the “Sad” day and I have loads of energy.  I have been counting my points and planning my food and that’s it.  No obsessing going on here.  I don’t even feel the urge to go over to the next row to get a donut.    That is probably all you will hear until I hit some major milestone of some sort.  Maybe my 10%.  It would be nice to hit my new 10% before going to Disney in May.  That would be 20 lbs… We shall see. […]

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